Today has been a day of perspectives. I got to work this morning and there were a million and one little things on my mind, sapping my mental capacity and slowing me down. They’re all very relevant to life at the moment because they’re things I cannot escape from: responsibilities at work, dear friends leaving Sydney permanently, needing to find a house at the moment… After an hour or so of working like that, we headed to staff meeting. In the past, it’s felt like another obligation, another church service, another excuse to get together to do God-stuff. But today it was what I needed…
We stood and began to sing:
Standing here in your presence
Thinking of the good things You have done
OK, so I hadn’t really been doing that. But with all I had in me, I tried to clear my head and think about what God has done.
Waiting here patiently
Just to hear your still small voice again
I didn’t feel so patient… But I could feel the little thoughts and worries knocking on the door. So I stayed a little longer. Hardly a place of relaxation or peace, but a place of solitude at the eye of the storm.
Holy, righteous, faithful ’til the end
Saviour, Healer, Redeemer and Friend
This is where it dawned upon me: it’s not about me! In 20 years, none of this will matter to me. But God will be just as holy, righteous, faithful…
And then finally, the chorus:
I will worship You for who You are
This was the perspective I needed. Today, worship meant admitting to myself that I’m not the centre of my universe. It meant recognising that God is so much bigger than me and in control than me… I worry about stuff because I can’t control it. But it’s not about me! I make it about me too often, but if I’ll just let my mind let go once in a while and look at things from a perspective of eternity, it allows the heart rate to slow down a bit. Some might consider this to be a loss of identity – taking myself out of the driver’s seat; but knowing that a loving God is in control of not only the universe but also my life and well-being is an extremely comforting thought!